2012 - Dragonfly's Tail A-Draggin'

by J.R. Beatty

Dragonfly's Tail A-Draggin'
Dragonfly's Tail A-Draggin'

I was sitting in my car at a presently unused water skiing lake out in the NC countryside when I saw this black dragonfly land on the rough hewn, sawed-plank, nailed down wooden boat dock in front of me. It was a good distance away so I cranked up my camera's zoom lens and snapped away. (Click on photo)

It appeared the insect had flown a long way for it gingerly laid its extra long, cantilevered tail down on the wood dock to rest. For a full five minutes it just sat there not moving. I knew exactly how it felt!

Then, apparently sufficiently rested, it suddenly flew up, off across the lake to who knows where dragonflies zig-zag to next. I sure don't know, do you!?

I was reminded by this silent interaction that this "path crossing" situation has always been a bit troubling to me - as child and adult.

Some other disappointing interactions included:
+ Many cars and vans crossing over me on a highway overpass carrying lots of folks I would never know
+ Several young women I dated in college who I couldn't or didn't pursue well enough to confirm our longterm compatibility
+ All the interesting people I met and talked with once at the library, on an airplane, at the grocery store, the mall, my work office, or ...
+ A female who had often signaled her forbidden feelings for me - apparently frustrated by my inaction, she no longer speaks my name
+ A "person of interest" who kept a life-impacting, secret decision from me for many years until it was too late to make positive changes

In the short times we had "together", each individual, for "reasons" of their own, was unable to completely communicate all their true heart-gut feelings, painful life experiences, and deep-seated needs like natural creative instincts, incomplete personal experience, or adult life's timing problems.

This unhappy, apparently unavoidable fact of life has always given me an achy-breaky, hurting feeling deep inside my heart and soul - as child and adult.